how would you find the strength to wrestle it off?
When reality crumbles,
and menace creeps up on you,
forces you into the shadowless corner,
then tightens its grip against your throat,
where would you find your lighthouse amidst the dark?
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I dreamt of her again last week.
It’s her, yet I know it’s not her. I don’t know how, but yeah.
I crave for the companion she was, yet they are not ready to let go yet.
I do not know why I could move on easily sometimes.
I mean, I move on, but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss her. It doesn’t mean I don’t value her anymore.
I still do, but I’ve long accepted the fact that I’ll no longer be able to see her. That I’ll only have memories of her.
I don’t know how I do it, but yes, I move on pretty quickly.
Sometimes I’m not even sure whether that’s a good thing or not, you know, people might perceive it as heartless or something.
I seriously crave for her companion sometimes.
more updates. no pictures. yet.
Finally get to update. hehe.
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13th Dec
Remember the performance for USJ4 prom?
Well, that was BAD news. Their prom was canceled last minute due to management imperfections.
Dang. There goes all of our effort, I thought.
But. Lisa got us to perform for the SMK SU prom in Sunway Hotel. Hehe.
Which is great.
Too bad the stupid fella I asked to record the dance didn’t do it at all. That stupid fella!
And their open dance floor was a blast. I actually felt like I was in a club or something at first. Lol. You know, the lights were flashing and the dance floor and stage was packed with people dancing.
But, towards the end, the music they chose was starting to get boring. So.. Didn’t have the enthusiasm to dance d.
Our dance crew didn’t pay for the prom (why should we, they should pay us right.) so we ended up having dinner in Magical Theatre, Sunway Pyramid. Yummy, but pricey.
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14th Dec
Don’t ever go to the Themepark in Timesquare.
There’s absolutely no fun rides except for the roller coaster.
We paid 28bucks (supposed to be 35 but we got 20% off) and I assure you it was a complete waste of money.
Haha.
Yup, I went shopping with 3 friends in Timesquare.
All of us ate TomYam for lunch/dinner. Well we ate at 4pm. Hehe.
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I’m going to Bangkok tomorrow!
Yay..
I’ve never been there before.. Lol.
Gonna go shop kau kau there. Cheap mar.. ^^,
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Celebrating my grandpa’s birthday this Sat in Cameron Highlands.
That means no updates til next monday.
Take care peeps.
;P
PAWS
Volunteering at PAWS can be quite fun.
I went there with the thought that we’re helping out with the jumble sale to raise funds but the event’s actually tomorrow. 9/12/07
So today all we did was sort out all the stuff that people donated to them.
There were so many junks.
Sigh.
Especially clothes! The clothes we recieved were all damn old, I think they were from the 90’s or 80’s even. For goodness sake, before you donate stuff that you don’t use anymore, please put this into consideration, would others use it too??
Anyway, I found several unique stuff there. Hehe. Not gonna tell it here as they are christmas gifts. ;P
The stuff. Most of them are books, clothes and porcelain stuff. There were even modems, an ikea lamp, shoes (there’s even a RM250-worth boots which is priced at RM50.), soft toys, bags, caps, telephone cables (!!!) … …
Now, about the animals.
There were dogs, cats and a monkey! Lol.
This is one of the pens. Look at them. They are all female dogs. Abandoned female dogs. I think they group them according to their gender and age.
When you look carefully, their eyes have a hint of sorrow. You can practically feel that they crave for love and attention by the way they sniff and lick at your hand.
Sigh.
And there were so many of them.
He’s my favourite. A tiny, skinny, unstable pup that nibbles so softly on my fingers.
Look at her tongue! It’s like she’s sticking it out to you on purpose. Bluek!
She’s the one that sat by the metal door so that I could give her a chin scrub.
Felicia like him the most. He’s so chubby. This pic doesn’t do him justice at all.
Adopt me!
:P
I’m exhausted.
“Gimme gimme more gimme more gimme gimme more” is stuck in my head. I hear it playing over and over again.
Lol.
Know why?
That’s what we’re dancing to for the performance! That and the way we are.
hehe.
Gosh. It has been so long since my last performance.
We have not been practising like mad since the USJ8 Leo thingy in Summit earlier this year. ;P
Yea, we always choreograph and practise last minute. We always dance every single night before the event to perfect it.
I missed the hustle bustle. The non-stop practices. The un-decisive-ness over our performance outfits.
OH YEA.
And not to mention the blue-blacks I NEVER FAIL to get on my freaking knees.
Lol.
They are very serious ok. I’m too tired to take pic now so I’ll take it when I have time tomorrow.
It’s ugly. How am I suppose to wear my dress when I go to the event?? With those bruised knees visible, it’ll look horrible.
T.T
Anyway, I enjoy the elation of dancing on stage. so it’ll be worth it.
Oh yea, the event’s USJ 4’s prom. It’s in Sheraton Hotel, so if you’re interested, call any USJ 4 form5ers.
:D
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Now, about tomorrow.
PAWS is having a fundraising event at their place near Subang Airport.
In case you don’t know what PAWS is, it stands for Paws Animal Welfare Society.
Won’t you be a dear and go there tomorrow to support them?
The event starts at 10 something. If you don’t know the way, here:
Hehe.
Now you can’t use the “I-dont-know-the-way” excuse.
;P
ps: I’ll be volunteering there, so it’ll be a bonus. hehe.
Graduation. Year 2007.
I almost gave up yesterday. I was so frustrated that I didn’t want to go.
But, how could I not show up? How could I not attend my own graduation??
Graduations have always made me emotional. It’s either I’m hyped up, or I’d become nostalgic. Both happened today.
During my primary graduation night, I almost teared up. Almost. Because I was holding back.
The torrent of tears came two years later. During my brother’s graduation.
My mom and I were waiting for him outside my alma mater, Lick Hung.
I watched all those standard 6 students, having a great time with their friends of 6 years.
I heard Au Lang Syne.
Memories flooded back in that instant.
After 2 long years, the tears that didn’t come flowed uncontrollable.
Now. About MY Secondary Graduation.
