Have you seen an ostrich?

Yep.
That would be me.
I just did something TOTALLY EMBARRASSING!!!

The most embarrassing moment in my entire lifetime on Earth!

I was such an idiot.
I really felt like burrying my head in the sand,
in fact,
burying myself would be the best idea.

Eh wait.
I can dig a hole but who’s gonna cover me up?

I feel like dying. SERIOUSLY.

I shall hang myself this instant.

21 October, 2006. old LJ posts, random ramblings. No Comments.

And…..

Yes.

After 2 and a half weeks.

It’s finally over.

I am thinking of shifting again.
Livejournal is not quite user-friendly.
Next year. If I’ve got the time.

Right now, I just want to enjoy. Hehehe.
The taste of freedom is as sweet as a stracciatella gelato.

Should I talk about the papers?
Nah.
I think not. Merely the thought of it makes me frustrated.
I don’t think I did my best.
Not fully prepared but
what the heck?
It’s over.

Hehehe.

I’ve been going through several options these few days.
About my future of course!

I’ve got two choices.
A levels.
ICPU.

A levels takes 1.5 years and it’s 100% exam-orientated.
On the other hand,
ICPU takes only 1 year AND it’s 70% coursework and 30% exam only.

BUT, there’s always a but.

A levels is accepted in most of the universities in the world, including the top universities like Oxford, Harvard, Princeton…
whereas
ICPU is accepted in most universities too, but the only top university listed(from my observation, i might have made a mistake) is Harvard.

There you go.

My dream is to get a scholarship to either Oxford, Cambridge, Harvard or Princeton.
Far-fetched, eh?

** The bridge of sighs in Cambridge. It’s breath-taking.

To study in one of those universities would be amazing.
The environment, resources, lecturers…
Of course it’s not cheap.
That’s why I am aiming for a scholarship.
There’s no way my parents would be able to afford it.

Oh well.

19 October, 2006. future, old LJ posts, random ramblings. No Comments.

bored bored bored

It’s been a looooooooooooong time.
I miss typing on the keyboard so much.
Thank goodness my parents swatted the Huge FLY *coughbrothercough* away
when he was bugging me.
geez, I can’t even go online with peace.

Exam’s COMING!!
PANIC PANIC PANIC!!!
*runs around clutching my head*

It was such a pain when I saw the form3 students came out of school today.
Reminded me of my upcoming exam..
Sniff..

-out-

6 October, 2006. old LJ posts, random ramblings. No Comments.

He loved her like there was no tomorrow

Love Will Show You Everything
by Jennifer Love Hewitt

Today, today I bet my life
You have no idea
What I feel inside
Don’t, be afraid to let it show
For you’ll never know
If you let it hide

I love you
You love me
Take this gift and don’t ask why
Cause if you will let me
I’ll take what scares you
Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I’m with you
And why I’ll never
Leave
Love will show you everything

One day
When youth is just a memory
I know you’ll be standing right next to me

I love you
You love me
Take this gift and don’t ask why
Cause if you will let me
I’ll take what scares you
Hold it deep inside
And if you ask me why I’m with you
And why I’ll never
Leave
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything
My love will show you everything�

This song comes from a movie called If Only.
Jennifer Love Hewitt stars as a talented young singer/songwriter who’s met the love of her life (Paul Nicholls) while studying classical music in London.�
Unfortunately, on the very day they have a major fight,�
she’s involved in a terrible accident.�
But when fate miraculously intervenes,�
her grief-stricken boyfriend gets a second chance to relive the tragic day.
He knew she was going to die in the end of the day.
He grasp every chance to spend time with her when he knew it’ll happen somehow.
The ending of the movie is very touching and sad.�
I hate sad endings!!�

You have to watch this movie.�
It really strikes you in the heart to appreciate your loved ones.�

They can be by your side now.�
But, no one can ever predict the future.

What would happen if they were gone forever?
Will you be able to live with yourself when you would never get the chance to say you love them?
Will you be able to continue your life when the only chance of seeing them is through their photos?

I am not just talking about boyfriends and girlfriends�
but about our families and friends and the people that we value very much.

It’s never too early to tell them what you truly feel.�

Don’t wait til you don’t have a chance to do so anymore.

23 September, 2006. emo, old LJ posts. No Comments.

English Essay

I was alone that dark, cold, windy night. All alone in this empty house. Outside, it rained as though God himself was angered by the wrongdoings of humankind, as though the angels were sharing my pain.

“Noooooooo!”

Another heart-wretching shriek pierced through the night but it soon stopped when I realised that it was coming from me.

I saw it again.

It was as if someone was replaying the same horror movie over and over again in my head. It started whenever I closed my eyes and wouldn’t stop even when I opened them.

The blinding headlights.
The screams.
Those lifeless eyes.

I can’t stand it anymore.

The silence in the house seems louder than the string of thunder rolling across the furious sky. Everytime the lightning strikes, I flinched as I saw the headlights again.

I could feel the hard brownish stains of dried blood on my MNG white blouseas I sat on the sofa. I’ve sat here ever since I came home. I’m not even sure how did I ever managed to find my way home in the state of shock that I’m in.

Across the room, the tv stood silently, lifeless like every other thing in the house.

I was frightened by the sight of the girl on the tv screen. She was clutching onto the cushion as though her life depended on it but it’s her looks that made my heart skipped.
Her hair was hanging limply against her pale, gaunt cheeks.
Her pupils were dilated and she stared into the space with an empty gaze.

Laughter rang out when I realised that girl was my reflection.

I could feel myself leaning against the edge of insanity. I am just a marionette in the mighty hands of God.

All of a sudden,
the rope dangling from the fan looks deliciously inviting.

21 September, 2006. old LJ posts, poetry and stories. No Comments.

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