It’s true. I found a statement quite true but I wont tell you what statement it is, cos I saw it on someone else’s blog and I don’t want to disclose whose blog I reads. HAHAHA.

So what’s the point of the whole sentence above? I don’t know. I just feel like typing it out la. Don’t let ar?

Anyway, sometimes I just feel like escaping from reality. Like the time when I went to Turkey for a week RIGHT BEFORE my semester exams. That was bliss. None of my troubles was on my mind. NONE. I could just lie on the grass there and look up at the sky with absolutely nothing in my mind.

Here, you want to lie in the middle of the padang? Heck, people would think you’re another lunatic that runs around the neighbourhood. Oh yea, another reason would be because no one knows me in Turkey.

Sigh.

I seriously crave for another runaway right now. I wanna runaway runaway! At some point, I even think I couldn’t stand it anymore. All the bloody tied-downs.

Urgh.

Juno was quite an inspiring movie for me even though I’ve only watched it halfway. Inspiring not because she got pregnant at 16, but inspiring cos she has got her own style of living, she doesn’t give a DAMN about what people think. Man, I think I gotta learn from her, of course not the getting pregnant part, but you know, the way she looks at things.

Haihya, Whatever la. I have no idea what am I ranting about anyway.

Santa said I’m greedy, always wants everything. Well, he does have a point. Like right now, there’s my studies, the play and work. It’s too hectic for me to have all 3, but I want ALL. I want ALL. I mean, I wanna score for my AS, I wanna do well in the play and I wanna work since I haven’t got ANY working experience and I’m like already 18. I want ALL la. But that’d mean MAJOR STRESS, and a helluva possibility that I’d fail all 3. That’s why I dropped work lo. FIne lo, since I can’t have em all, I drop the drop the least important one.

I mean, of course I’d be greedy. Come on. When there’s nothing in line for me, there’s absolutely nothing. When things come, they come all at once. So how you tell me? How?

Take dancing for instance, back in form4 and 5, I had several opportunities to perform onstage. I took some, but I was forced to let go of some, cos of the bloody SPM which seems miniscule now compared to A levels. My mom said to concentrate on SPM first, and I’d still have lenty of opportunities in the future. But now that I’ve graduated from high school, the opportunities are all gone. I mean, there are la. But I’ve got no crew.

And now, I’m involved in another different kind of performing, a play. I’m seriously grateful that my mom didnt ask me to drop the play, since it’s like right in the middle of my trials and my AS and all. I think she understood that it’s hard to get another opportunity like this. Haha. Thank goodness. But I SERIOUSLY hope she doesn’t start to nag when I have to practice everyday. Cos I need support, not nagging. Lol. I wish parents would understand that, sometimes.

So, of course I’d want to grab at every opportunity. Duh. So, I think my greed is justified. HAHAHA.

I don’t remember the last time I’ve ranted so much. Ah well. Adios.